Sighs

Ever had a night where you had a lot to think about and needed to be quiet for a while to reassess your life but everyone just wanted a piece of you?

And you can't say no to them?

More people gets involved and suddenly it became a party which you wanted no part of?

It lasted the entire night. 

Until you saw your chance to escape. 

But no, it was just a trap. 

Your brain is not yours tonight. It's everybody's. 

Then it finally went quiet. 

Finally. 

You have the night to yourself again. 

Then the snoring starts. 

Just one of those nights. 

Labour day in Krabi

We had a longer weekend than usual.

We got stung by mossies more than 10 times. Ying lost count due to her mossie magnetic blood. 

An unexpected trip. 

5 girls, and tonnes of fun. 

Wished we didn't have to leave so soon.

I chose to spend my 30th on an island near home. In contrast to the places I've been to, it's an unusual choice this year. Batam has its charm (and it's cheap). This trip signifies a simplicity in my life that I long to have. 

It's a first, travelling and rooming with Alina. I like how she complements me in the family. Xx

               

First night raining after a long rain hiatus. The coolness in the air distracted me from my sick stomach flu. 

I just sang (very loudly) a coupla songs out the window. Just to check if anyone can hear me through the rain. 

Fighting sleep cos my mind is running on hyper mode after a lull day resting and dragging my feet everywhere. 

Love random chats with nick. He just revealed how he got attracted to the idea of Christianity. Thank you Kaka. 

Fever has gone down. Can't wait to get back to work tmr. Sucha workaholic. 

Sick but feeling like the luckiest girl in the world. 

On my pensive pillow

With a temperature taking over the body, it's another restless (or timely) night to pen the random fog of thoughts in my fever brain. 

I had an interesting tanning session at the beach with my favourite twins the other day. It rendered me peeling and sunburnt with itchy raw skin. During the session, I really spoke my mind about the ongoing mayhem in my life (nothing related to my wonderful boyfriend, abundant friendship, or awesome family). It set me thinking if I should dabble in stuff I enjoy instead of what I should be doing as a grown up who've bills to pay and people to impress. 

I'm 30 and sometimes I have to remind myself that I'm not out to please everyone but to embrace being myself and to chase after small dreams. 

One thing on my mind - how much does it take to drive one out of his/her comfort zone? What about killing that nice little tight circle one've built to fall back on?

Undeniably, comfort zone = progress killer. 

I enjoy pushing boundaries from time to time (not even the lofty or attention grabbing kind) and totally comfortable with being an unpopular rebel, non-conforming and unconventional. A kind of confidence I've grown into since my 20s. For that, I give thanks to my family background and upbringing. Without those precious growing up years, I would be way more sheltered and inherently complacent than I intend to be. 

So no, none of that people-pleasing work already. 

What actually brought me to this round up is the gradual lack of challenges. 

Time to rev the engines. I'm bored stiff.