Weird sleeping habit

Roused from my sleep with sweat on my back. And so the coughing fit starts. It has been like this for the past few days. Never a good night's rest. The fever came back again when I was at work on Monday. It wouldn't have felt so bad if the medicine actually work.

Seen 3 doctors over the week and got new or re-prescription but still no progress. Wow. It must be one kind of resilient virus. 

Sick health aside. I'm going to KL for ASOT in March! It's been a long awaited trip. Still with the same group I went with to Melaka for Freedom years ago. Which was a blast. 

Should probably update that I just did Root Canal Treatment over CNY. Worst decision ever. I'd show you pictures but it's not a pretty sight. 

Never again. I can't warn my friends and family enough about this. Not worth the pain and trouble to end up with having a dead tooth in your mouth. Pain is probably the only thing you'll take away from the therapy and nothing else. 

It's expensive ($2000+), super troublesome (3 rounds of RCT plus 2 rounds of crowning), and you still need to care for it like you would your other teeth despite it being a dead tooth (meaning you can't feel pain). And you basically pray that you take such good care of it, it won't decay (yes it can) in the near future so that you don't have to PLUCK IT OUT. Yes, eventually. See how it's not worth the trouble?

Its already 6am. I should try going back to sleep. 

sick

i feel like barfing. i'm nursing a migraine. my stomach is in pain.

i took the day off to rest in and tomorrow doesn't seem like a good work day despite marking end of the work week.

i have so many backlogs to clear.

a nice long rest is overdue.

of crazy-ass migraine and cramps

i had to cut short a good night with the ex-andersonians and a birthday celebration with the cousins. (i got home around midnight after sant sent me home.)

at 2 am, i'm holed up at home resting whilst watching twilight-meets-gossip-girl dvd series, True Blood, with the migraine still banging up inside my head.

freaking dying.

and goddamn menses cramp.

=(

rolled off the wrong side of the bed

no matter how much i sleep, it just ain't enough. i do feel terribly sleepy and weak this morning. definitely not a good start to the end of the week.

my whole body aches. my back's sore. i haven't worked out in a week. however much i egg my body on, i seem to be hitting the ground.

i won't deny i do need a good backrub.

but time is not very kind to me today.

*groan*

hang in there, michelle!

hungry

but i lost my appetite.

too tired to eat.
too lazy to move.
too hungry to sleep.

its killing me.

i cant even gather strength for simple activity like talking.

but im meeting someone whom i havent seen in a long time who came all the way to woodlands to find me.

there's no sign of falling sick yet.

but my nose bled the other day.

sigh. time to tone down.

i feel burnt out.

solemn

today was an okay day. i was quite beside myself. if words could describe how i feel, it'd have to resonate between being numbed and trapped.

a simple hug, the presence of a friend, or just hearing the familiar voice of a close friend sounds welcoming. i hesitate. guess it's just mad rush hour and like many cookie cutter executives, im rushing back to my pad...to solace.

gosh please dont remind me it's only tuesday.

nasty

im sneezing and wheezing and i hate it. my throat hurts. i cant believe i've actually fallen sick again. i have been taking my vitamin c and sticking to a largely sick-proof diet. and what does this show me?

im fed up with this falling sick routine.

its like.. damn why me?

you say hey, i say ho

i was so upset that i teared in the train today. it was so funny cos i was trying to stop the tears from spilling over the brim and kept rolling my eyes upwards (somehow that always work) while dabbing at the inner corner of my eyes with a ball of tissue clutched in my hands. i attracted a bit of unwanted attention there. my nose was a lil ruddy as well so i dont really blame people for being curious.

dont think i wanna do details about that though. im clueless about it myself. i dont know if it was caused by the Pill but it was truly overwhelming emotions. i was so stirred by my thoughts and couldnt get myself off it. funny how those tears came about. but im feeling much better already thanks to mom who bought organic raw honey to mix with my new daily morning routine of ACV (thats apple cider vinegar) - to improve digestion. mom also bought other organic stuff so that made me quite a happier person overall =D what can i say except that mommy knows best!

after work, i trotted all over vivocity in my bad ankles and then a migraine came on from out of nowhere but yet i trudged on, determined to find the perfect present for joanna. i practically went into each and every store there is. oh present hunting is frustrating especially because of budget constraint. i saw so many items that i thought she'd like but are overpriced. so sad. in the end i settled for something less extravagant but simple and wont go wrong. cant reveal it here though! but i will once i pass it to her tomorrow at her birthday dinner organized by my dear SIM fam!

cant believe i went from teary to glad to overjoyed to okay (which is normal) in less than 2 hours. human emotions are wacky.

a simple monday

of late, ive been ogling at passing babies and furry animals. often i was caught with a huge mega grin plastered on my face. i guess ive never noticed them the way i have now. in the past, i was too caught up with myself and pursuing my ideals and goals. thoughts like "when will i have one of my own" finds its way into my troubled mind.. but really, every woman who went through childbirth have my total RESPECT. that goes to show how much the woman love the husband/man to want to carry his child.

so, the decision to go for yoga this evening restored my energy levels once again. i still function better at night sometimes and recently ive been on dead mode and it is time to do something about it. im going to step in earlier for a morning workout at the office from tomorrow onwards and see if it does anything for the energy levels.

sadly, the Pill hasnt really stabilize in my system yet. for the first time in weeks, i felt the nauseated effect recurring again. my colleague, christi, think that it might be too strong for me. but i think its a pity to give up just when im starting to see results.

a migraine is starting to form as im typing this. i need a deep breather so i had better dismiss myself from this tedious chore before it gets worse.

feeling lumpy

having damn ulcers again.

i had it coming. wished i had drank enough water at work. my problem is just that im not one who down water by the gallons. i drink only when i feel like drinking, and that's rarely.

ulcers make me feel crappy.

ulcers and i dont co-exist very peacefully.