Freedom

I tried to look into the eyes of a man who wants his freedom. Someone who's protective of his space. How can we share a future together? Did I get it all wrong?

On a positive note, today marks the beginning of a brand new journey. Somewhere I wanna be for a while. Farewells are emotional but they're also necessary for future growth. I'll miss my co workers. They've been a great bunch of people to be around. Here's to a good break. 

what the hell

when was this?! how is it that...

who is this??

post shock, i just don't think i can ever remember taking this picture. the furthest i can remember is that this is not my swimwear. it must have belonged to row. wow, some work needs to be done soon.

sieving through my archives, i must have stored millions and billions of pictures stashed away in my hardly accessed 700 gigabytes external drive. browsing over them brought back lots of giggles, shocks, memories and glassy eyes. upon speculation, i think it's gonna take me days or weeks to finish poring through everything.

i have so much backlog photos to post i don't even know where to begin. and even if i don't, it was really fun to reminisce away.

maybe i will start a backlog soon. i think you guys will love it.

going through the motion

i feel suffocated and pukish this morning.

the drought season is here. i can't seem to stop feeling tired.

my knee has been crap. i'm getting immobile.

there are a few things to look forward to this week but i hope i'm up for it.

these days, tiredness have become my best friend.

an uphill struggle for happiness (nobody ever said it was easy)

did a thorough software clean up of the computer and its working as good as new. no more slow loading woes.

im having major migraine tonight but felt better after i shampooed.

accidentally seeing certain things still affect my mood but im constantly improving on handling it. its a matter of time before it wont affect me anymore, im sure. i named my blog for a reason. it is there to remind me that people and things changes (or metamorphoses) for better or worse and coping with the change is a skill. an art. no matter how much i hate to admit it, im always a lil bit stronger than i thought. i never liked 'fessing up because it makes one obliged to be it (ie strong) as others see it.

mom's close friend passed away a week ago and it just magnified the realization of how fragile human beings really are. after battling with an illness, the doc gave her 2 weeks tops. may god bless her soul, she succumbed less than the given. i cannot even begin to imagine how it must have been for mom and others close to her. but mom was really strong.

it got me thinking that should i be the one to leave this world without so much as a word one day, i definitely dont want no tears. i like being happy and have deemed myself as the greatest, pinkest happy pill should my friends feel blue. or at least i always try.

may i also just add that friends and family are god's greatest gift to me =) there is a constant need to remind self that one ought not to take people for granted.

enough said for one solemn topic.

in other news, i just checked my horoscope and OMG this is fieerce!

that reminds me of ethan's immortal words: that person whom you think is weird might think you are weird too.

it goes both ways i guess!