an awful monday

i hate it when i cannot defend my friend. i hate being too nice. i hate traps. i certainly hate it when people expect me to understand their problems when i really don't.

i can't air my grievance at all.

it really sucks.

i feel stuck.

i dread tomorrow already.

i really needed to lose some steam so i went for yoga. met cute guy. my bad. i shouldn't call him cute. there are really no cute guys in yoga. period.

i'm feeling slightly sore about the whole thing. friends should never be involved unless i knew firsthand what was to come. i hate it when my trust is misused.

there was an apology.

but the trust is misplaced already.

i don't risk friendships for benefits. and i don't like being told i'm wrong and naive to think that way.

i'm capable of thinking for myself.

i had the bluest monday, it's almost black :(