rhyming thoughts...or maybe not

sometimes you wonder if you really know what it all means
whether you will one day find your dreams
of things done and said, all that belonged in the past
that made you think of doubtful shadows cast
what will i get this year?
another dose of hopefulness i hear
dont just send me someone who will yield
i dont need another of those ills
rid of the bullsh*t
none will even eat
all through these hardship i call months
are you even aware or maybe you aren't
but im happier now than i have been in months
a blessing guised the broken road
that led me to what i wrote