Counselling

11 sessions of marriage therapy + 1 single session of grief and loss concluded the last session with our counsellor, with an open date.

The sessions has always been good and helpful. Since we started counselling in mid August last year, 9 months of therapy has helped improve and strengthen our understanding of each other and I dare say that has renewed our marriage spiritually and emotionally.

With my impending delivery of Elijah in another 2 months' time and also the fact I feel we had held ourselves together very well despite a 2 months hiatus from our final session - previous session in March - which had never happened before, I boldly initiated a cessation with Carol.

I enjoyed our sessions so much and was actually reluctant to stop but I knew commitment would be an issue once our baby boy is born. I also feel ready to let go of our dependency on Carol, and to work our way to the next level in our marriage - to have peace and mutual understanding.

I'll never know what to expect with our marriage lifeline cut off. Truth is also, I've never felt happier and stronger than now. I have faith in Nick and in our future as a family of four and perhaps more. God is surely in this with us as he has always been, binding us together as one in a trinity knot.

I'm not afraid anymore. I am not grieving anymore. I'm not even the same person anymore. I still shed tears on special occasions and holiday seasons when I think of my sister but I know she is happy and free now. I already know I'll meet her one day and I look forward to that. Now, I just need to live my life without regrets so I don't waste a single moment of it as a mother, daughter, wife and friend.

My life reborn as a grieving sister is a gift. Grief has been my best teacher and I'm learning more than I've ever learnt. Grieving more certainly doesn't bring anyone back so I've learnt to let go and let God direct. To my grieving friends, the epiphany will come in your grieving journey one day. Until then, you'll learn so much more than you ever have. 

Now you can see why I have so much to live for, before I go on to live with Angels in heaven and to meet a special angel, whom I call my darling sister.