and so... this is how it feels like to graduate

i didn't know much about love but it came too soon
as we look back now will our jokes still be as funny?
and now we're all men and women of the world. - Vit C (Graduation)

how does graduation felt like? it feels different for everyone i know. for me, it's like saying sayonara to the things we learned at school. yet not like an unkind farewell but a longing parting.

it doesnt make sense

i had a rough week. been sleeping very late every night because of one reason or another. just the other night i had a rather long chat with zoee and came to understand a bit more about myself. this girl chat is not to be underestimated. i never thought anyone could change my mind but she did.

i must be rather mad.

zoee had said things that made sense. but after having gone through a relationship for the third or fourth time, i now have clearer ideas of my future ideal. lets just say i am short of saying to be here at this moment in time and surrounded by good people is more than i have imagined.

God is kind to good people. whoever is over at the other side of the screen... please whisper a prayer for me. i need a gentle push in the right direction.

im so tired. but im happy. and oily. im extremely oily for a person on diane.

you wont get what i mean until i show you THIS PHOTO:



i cant believe i had just sat through an Ion Cell Spa treatment. at a somewhat dodgy shop house no less.

it is a painless detoxifying process that excretes toxin from different internal organs in the body and is akin to the endorsed plaster product by PCK that apparently attracts all the waste (aka positive ions) in your body via the sole of one's feet and replaces it with negative ions. how unbelievable i thought. but how intrigued was i by this crazy experiment that i couldnt say no. in the end, it was all a-okay and i expelled so much fats from my body i couldnt believe my eyes. LJ sniggered at me. i am officially an oily woman.

how could anyone have so much oil to excrete i wonder? maybe its all good too.

i know it looks highly nauseating because believe me, if it looks gross... try smelling it.

for the record, they had used clear tap water. the colour you saw indicated high levels of nicotine in my body. i was asked if i smoke but the answer to that is i am an unfortunate passive smoker because people around me smokes and there is nothing i can do but inhale the fatal tobacco smoke.

im planning on going back again no matter how dodgy the place looks.

things are all good on the work front and while its been a hectic past month, it had all been worth it. i gained some useful new knowledge and skills.

work on the spa front wore me out but it was a good experience and i picked up new insights on things in a general sense.

i had wanted to save my fish spa experience for ericia, cat and viv but i couldnt resist the temptation and hopped into one at my work place.



LJ's slender and very feminine hand.



the first few days saw the Garra Rufa jumping far above the surface of the water as they were only beginning to get used to their environment thus, the plastic sheets loomed over the edges to prevent the doctor fishes from accidental suicide.



here's a clip of my fish spa experience:

the results: skin were visibly smoother and brighter. also, the feet felt lighter (i have no idea why). the smooth effect is due to the Garra Rufa injecting tiny amounts of chemical into the skin as they nibbled away, causing the skin to feel silkier afterwards. my pair of feet is feeling mighty funky!

found this picture of terence and frederick and pulled a "photoshop" on it. turned out pretty fitting.

the colour coded affair during ericia's birthday some 2 months ago.



wishing i had slept earlier at the start of the week seems to be a cumulative ritual now.

a sunday without sun

i love sundays and i absolutely love the sun. but its been raining for the past few days and its irking me tremendously. i feel so cold even indoor that when i get outdoor, i thought of stepping back in again. in the end, i didnt even leave my house.

on a good note, ive been in decently cheerful mood. four months into taking D-35 and its finally paying off. i see improvement in my skin and its no longer as bumpy as before. in fact, its beginning to glow - okay maybe its also due to my tan fading off. no wait. what tan?? i dont have one anymore - and radiates. joy is me. skin improvement is everything to rave about in my case.

some marks are still there though. ive been taking this super expensive collagen drink that will eventually take care of the scars - given that as i grow older, my collagen production decreases. its not like in the past where i can have a huge pustule that scars but disappears as fast as it had happened. whoever said good skin lasts forever? well, not to me anyway.

i attended a work-related yoga conference recently and here's a clip to illustrate:

the yoga master in question is a fellow colleague who has helped me with my breathing problems since attending his yoga classes. he was an instant hit at the conference.

dined at sakura a coupla days ago with ericia. it was the same restaurant which we celebrated terence's birthday earlier this may.

my tom yum fried rice which tasted pretty alright but at $5nett, it didnt look all that presentable to me.

taking a mirror image shot when ericia walked away for a while. evidence of a rainy day with ericia's brolly hanging off the edge of our table.

ericia's crispy mee with prawns and fish pieces. i love this dish! its only $4. bernita had this dish when we celebrated terence's birthday.

the famous must-have dish. crispy chicken with thai chilly sauce. crunchy even after we attack it at the end of our entree. $8.

i took ericia along for aromatherapy at this Body Wellness place located at Stamford Court and while she didnt quite enjoy her session, i thought my therapist was great. i did my spa research while i was there too.

i had a great day despite the rain and should really bid good night for now.

GG

i finally caught up on the first season of Gossip Girl. now that im done watching it, i dont wonder to myself anymore why everyone's so hyped up about the second season even though it's not even out yet in the US of A.

for the record, i am beginning to find chuck fascinating. not totally unexpected given his bad boy charm. however, im neither into blair nor serena. rather, i watch out for lily (serena's beauty of a mom). i think she's really classy and i never get bored of admiring her melon seed face. i noticed serena got less attractive as the episode progresses on and blair appears chubbier towards the last few episodes, especially so after her secrets were revealed by GG.

overall a fun and captivating first season. i sure hope the second season will not disappoint.

brr. weather's cold. time to slide under the sheets.

we took a chill pill each

im supposed to be sleeping but then i had this sudden intense desire to put up these photos.

sorry for the lack of light adjustments because im too arsed to tweak the lightings at this hour.

we caught Jazz By The Beach, the girls and i. and banter we did.

allow me to backtrack a lil. i accidentally dropped my SE W880i in a pool of loo water and while the rest of it is still going strong, the mic isn't. i think i must have had the mic changed like 3 times already. anyway, that's besides the point. the point is, i finally decided to search for a new phone and now im a happy owner of SE P1i.

i still love my old phone cos it's so slim but i love that the new one comes with FM radio and have a macro function for the camera cos the old phone doesn't. the QWERTY keypad is so much better to use too, methinks. new technology is only a matter of getting used to. i was glad that it comes with the latest software system and it doesn't really hang that much (well, maybe not now but i do have lots of stuff from the old 1GB memory card).

and while it's 3.2 megapixel, it's good enough for me. hey, at least i've "upgraded" from a miserable 2 megapixel alright?

so well, back to story of the girls' night out.

it's been ages since we hung out like this and cam whore we did! i was also kinda hoping cat, gid, terence and tl would be there but well. i miss you guys if you are reading!

photos below courtesy of my new phone:

the fact that we sat out on the wide grassy area reminded me of the play 'Shakespeare in the Park' that terence, gid, tl and i caught - A Mid Summer's Night Dream - at fort canning last year. digression aside, the music that night was pretty okay. a bit dancey, a bit lounge.

first 'threesome' pic, off center.

ericia took helm of my camera now and then, as always.

love this. by ericia.

need i say? by ericia.

i had a rollin' good time with my fair ladies (pun totally intended).

had our supper at woodlands afterwards and i reached home feeling tired but extremely satisfied and happy =)

slept for 3 hours the moment my head hit the pillows before waking up for an event yesterday. ericia had to work in the morning too and 2 sleepyheads struggled to wake up, 1 giving the other morning call to avoid being late for work. strangely comforting - im not alone, yay!

event wise: so, it goes that there was this major event-race (at temasek poly) of which we were a part(ner) of.

we supported in partial kindness by providing our services to the runners.

the Spa ladies hard at work.

the promos we ran by.

post event; we waited out in the field for our colleague to come get us with his logistic vehicle. and i was pretty much tanning out there in the massage arm chair whereas ericia was tanning in a different region of Singapore with angela.

aight im really bushed. now i really need to go crash.

you say hey, i say ho

i was so upset that i teared in the train today. it was so funny cos i was trying to stop the tears from spilling over the brim and kept rolling my eyes upwards (somehow that always work) while dabbing at the inner corner of my eyes with a ball of tissue clutched in my hands. i attracted a bit of unwanted attention there. my nose was a lil ruddy as well so i dont really blame people for being curious.

dont think i wanna do details about that though. im clueless about it myself. i dont know if it was caused by the Pill but it was truly overwhelming emotions. i was so stirred by my thoughts and couldnt get myself off it. funny how those tears came about. but im feeling much better already thanks to mom who bought organic raw honey to mix with my new daily morning routine of ACV (thats apple cider vinegar) - to improve digestion. mom also bought other organic stuff so that made me quite a happier person overall =D what can i say except that mommy knows best!

after work, i trotted all over vivocity in my bad ankles and then a migraine came on from out of nowhere but yet i trudged on, determined to find the perfect present for joanna. i practically went into each and every store there is. oh present hunting is frustrating especially because of budget constraint. i saw so many items that i thought she'd like but are overpriced. so sad. in the end i settled for something less extravagant but simple and wont go wrong. cant reveal it here though! but i will once i pass it to her tomorrow at her birthday dinner organized by my dear SIM fam!

cant believe i went from teary to glad to overjoyed to okay (which is normal) in less than 2 hours. human emotions are wacky.

energy and movies

ive never felt better. thanks to the schedule of power workouts ive been sticking to for days. im feeling the energy coursing through my veins and its a tight (a street slang for wondrous) feeling. been trying to eat more sensibly so that my skin will clear faster too. coupled with the exercise program before and after work, i think im on my way to heavenly skin =) guess i'll be pumping my heart rate more often to get the energy - i so desperately need - going.

i just finished a cartoon movie called Family Guy: The Untold Story that christi loaned me. its definitely worth watching again and im shocked they didnt air it in Singapore at all. christi brought me a few treasures like a couple of Family Guy episodes and a TV series akin to SATC but is called Lipstick Jungle. wonder if anyone have even heard of it. i think she brought them over here from the states or something.

gotta crawl into my bed soon - literally, my ankle isnt holding up so well after donning the wrong shoes for a morning treadmill run - if i wanna wake up on time for an early morning business trip. my day will begin shortly at 6.30am so its time to say my goodbyes and goodnight.

i'm good, i'm good without ya

Honey was fab!

Jessica Alba was da bomb!

Row and Rox raved about it many years ago and i only just caught it.

Missy Elliot was hilarious and the MV and song performed by Blaque Ivory is kinda cool...


it makes me feel like dancing in the club.

a simple monday

of late, ive been ogling at passing babies and furry animals. often i was caught with a huge mega grin plastered on my face. i guess ive never noticed them the way i have now. in the past, i was too caught up with myself and pursuing my ideals and goals. thoughts like "when will i have one of my own" finds its way into my troubled mind.. but really, every woman who went through childbirth have my total RESPECT. that goes to show how much the woman love the husband/man to want to carry his child.

so, the decision to go for yoga this evening restored my energy levels once again. i still function better at night sometimes and recently ive been on dead mode and it is time to do something about it. im going to step in earlier for a morning workout at the office from tomorrow onwards and see if it does anything for the energy levels.

sadly, the Pill hasnt really stabilize in my system yet. for the first time in weeks, i felt the nauseated effect recurring again. my colleague, christi, think that it might be too strong for me. but i think its a pity to give up just when im starting to see results.

a migraine is starting to form as im typing this. i need a deep breather so i had better dismiss myself from this tedious chore before it gets worse.

a sex and the city sunday

this afternoon was spent watching old seasons of SATC. and now that it's raining outside, it's the perfect weather to match my mood post viewing epic love story, The Notebook. it's nothing to be proud of but the tearjerker made me used up 5 pieces of tissue sniffing my guts out. i never had the chance to catch it before, so i thought it'd be a good time to watch it now.

i had a splendid catch up dinner with the guys from high school yesterday. i also did shopping (something i've not done in ages) because i had a bit of free time in between schedule and bought like 2 dresses, a zippy longish hoody cardigan (katt and peiqi thought it look great) and 10 other thongs from La Senza - katt later mentioned she heard they were really comfy so i guess i made some good purchases there. needless to speak, it's also a wonderful time to make use of the sales period.

a lil something i noticed is that often, people don't read properly or that they overanalyse things. and you need a lot of patience dealing with these people. i guess im one of those constantly trying to work up the patience handling all sorts of people who are daft like that.

and then sometimes, i'd take a good long look at the world around me and i tried to picture my role in the future, seeing lots of different images and hoping what i pictured would turn out as i've intended. one thing for sure, i gained some perspective out of people watching.

katt made some tiramisu for family and boyfriend and said we should get together to do it some day and well, i love tiramisu so i'll work that into my plan one weekend to fulfill our next girls bonding sesh! can't wait =)

an eventful week is coming up and as im totally pooped out today, im gonna go snuggle under the cosy sheets. but before that, i wanna wish all a good sunday night.

going private

unlike some people, i've no trouble with revealing my thoughts and opinions in public spaces like this blog. after all, views are subjective and i can take more than a few criticisms if they are not ill intentioned.

anyways, im not comfortable sharing my day to day details online. that, to me is getting a bit too close for comfort. so people may know my thoughts but they dont know what i do on a daily basis. and if they can relate, all the better.

so im thinking of locking up my entries again but just wanna preempt first.

let me know if you want to be invited to keep reading =)

ericia's big day

there was an element of surprise involved and knowing her, tears would definitely follow. im glad everything all panned out nicely. =)

happy official 24 my dearest party girl. i was happy to see your big wide smile plastered across your beautiful face and glistening eyes betraying your emotions - totally priceless! plus you look fabulous in black. its your night. enjoy yourselves with the Hehs and when you see this... i expect you to grin =)

and thanks for the observation, i put on weight. but i gain them as quickly as i lose them so. =) you dont hear me complaining, do you?

its a happy happy day and totally worth the effort despite the tiredness, aches and migraine. i love making the people i adore smile or feel special just because it makes my day as well. the SIM clique is just wonderful - the sick, the tired, the busy and the broke all came down with love and support. i'd be touched too.

im knackered but happy. and my bed suddenly seems very inviting. times like this makes me feel like i'll wake to another beautiful day.

dad

received a text from mom saying that dad is in e ward. i freaked out.

turned out dad had a bad fall but when i called to check on him, he managed to ease my fears and actually cracked jokes. i guess no normal parents ever want their child to worry. and im glad i have dad to lean on when i was going through a rough patch earlier on.

dad and i, well, we were not always this close to begin with. you could say we had a new found respect for and understanding from each other.

its amazing how God always blesses every broken road.

Lyrics

I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

[Chorus:]
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

[Chorus]

Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.