what makes me tick

i could fool the whole world but never thyself. denial... used to be my biggest weakness. 

guess i did the right thing by not returning those missed calls that fateful morning. am convinced i made the right decision.

sometimes i talk to myself; im not mental, im gearing my mental strength for crash landing. i can never be heartless enough and never will be, touch me and you'll know how soft my insides are. actually, dont. 

the stronger my mind, the less i try to fool it. they say you cant hoodwink a woman and get away with it lightly. lie to a smart and intelligent woman and expect to be guilt tripped. 

it's all in the past. its history. im clearer about it each time. good for me, at least i know where to invest my feelings. 

that feeling of yore doesnt make me tick anymore... what makes me tick? oh plenty. food used to be my happy place but now im making effort to lead a vastly healthier lifestyle, my previous diet and lifestyle didnt do me any good and caused a slew of health problems. 

balance is key. for example, you have a craving for fried food and compensate with chilled juice (supposed to be healthy) but hey cold drinks create what you call a sludge in the intestinal tracts when they react with oil aka fried food. so technically, people are short of killing themselves slowly. thats why cancer rates increase steadily annually. it didnt used to be that way 20 years ago. 

good healthy makes me tick.  

good skin makes my day. nobody likes having breakouts or acne all the time. not even if you're lucky to be with a guy who is mad enough to tell you your pimple looks cute. because it does not. 

seeing my hair grow longer makes me tick. haven't really done anything nice to my tresses when they were longer. so i fiddle with my hair and twirl it around my fingers more than ever now. im loving my new long hair. i feel feminine and sexy. 

knowing ive came quite a full circle to where I want to be right now puts a small tick in my heart. it wasnt always easy but i made my point when i found a job im passionate about and convocated with some of my very good friends.

makeup makes me tick because i love colours so much. like paint on canvas, they are delightful to look at. 

dance music makes me tick and jazz relaxes me. travels and foreign culture makes me tick. no matter how many times i travel, there is still that unmistakable breath of fresh air when you cross over to another zone. 

above all, real love makes me tick, this warm sensation coursing through the vein, making me all tingly inside...is what i receive from friends and family and is no less mushy than the one you receive from your partners. 

so what makes you tick?