thoughts

a girl once told me, that im someone she'd like to get to know better. maybe its because of the way i talk? or maybe its just the way i am. the same girl who shared her past experiences with me when i was at my lowest. she encouraged me to do many things. and of course, ditto for me.

her words were sometimes magical, i listened and obeyed. remember when she had wanted me to stay away from an admirer because he wasn't right for me, boy did i listen. she always talked sense into me, no matter how senseless i seem. she never gave up. always there, quietly supportive. never probing, even when the world was crashing down on me. she let me be, believing ill open up when im ready. when i want to be private for just a lil while. and when that "lil while" became too long, she'll start to knock some sense into me..

she's always encouraging. disapproving if she needs to be, like in the case of certain men in my life. but sometimes she's a lil like me. always pretending to be stronger than who we really are. maybe its this similarity that brought us closer.

she said i look more like a person who is call shannon, rather than my given name michelle. how cute i thought.

i remember buying her her first whiskey dry, and she was hooked since.

for a girl so petite and slim, she's definitely not a pushover. armed with her strong reasoning and grace, she would fight back with class.

she's got a giant heart. for a little person.

for the most part, she's not just beautiful outside but inside as well.

she's my dear ericia.

thank you dear, for all those sensible words you never thought would work on me. but it did.

a wanderlust wannabe

i finally got around to watching the movie Chocolat which ive been wanting to watch many years back. the very reason why i didnt was compelling enough. lets just say it was due to commitments that drew me away from my interests. well commitments aside, im glad i did watch it in the end. its always a matter of time isnt it? time never ventures too far away. its just a type of patience i guess. alright that was a lil off tangent. well im just trying to make sense of it.

i enjoyed it in spite of the differences between the movie and the book. very slightly so to speak.

what makes me happy isnt so much the act of watching the movie itself, but nestling between the sheets post a good movie; which in turn render me better dreams =)

so there, good night.

the long weekend

i had achilles heel pain over the weekend. it was inflamed and swelled. i was immobile and then on top of that i had to nurse a bad throat with honey.

no frets, im raring to go after a long weekend of rest. =)

caught Vantage Point on friday and i must say it practically got me alarmed several times. very clever twist of plot. no spoilers from me here for those who have yet to watch. the way the movie was filmed reminded me of The Butterfly Effect - i really love that movie btw, perhaps of its meaningful storyline to it. i know it doesnt make any sense but it did linked my thoughts to the latter movie.

it's officially ethan's birthday today. we got him a cute tie and a treble clef shaped cuff links to personify his musical talent as well as the creative soul in him as a future marketer. for the uninitiated, this is how a treble clef looks like,

to ethan: happy 24 and have a blasting career ahead!

we celebrated his birthday over dinner at sushi tei, vivo city. a stone's throw away from my workplace. it was supposed to be a surprise but he almost couldnt make it in the end due to projects and viv had to disclose her plans. was glad to see everyone that day. this reminds me of another thing - pictures! ah well. ill post pictures when ive gotten them. had a long fruitful chat with joanna that night; she sat beside me with the idea of wanting to share gossips with me ;) hahahaha.

in fact i was only having conversations to those seated around me. namely gillian [opposite], tl [to my right], viv [diagonally across] and joanna [to my left]. energy was seeping out from every pore. i felt drained and didnt even had appetite to eat dinner, to which tl had something to say; "how can you not have dinner after work?". in typical fashion, i usually have heavy dinner but certainly not that night. in spite of my dog tiredness, i was engaged in great conversations with most everyone that night. terence left early and we were pretty much left to our own devices after that. didnt even had a chance to talk to him to ask about his first day at work.

a brand new week awaits. busier week may i add.

time for me to sleep. good night world.

harbouring a fool within

i typed a nice long entry about reaching out.

but hit Ctrl+A after the momentum has vanished.

and entered delete.

its not meant to be understood. ill bear in mind not to be so silly anymore. ive learnt that you cannot be foolish too many times. once is a lesson, twice is stupidity, thrice is max. fourth spells hopelessness. there shouldnt be a fifth time. sigh. im beyond hope.

ive also figured that you cant base the present situation on things that were said in the past because things can change. words are worthless.

i thought i knew. but who knows? what to do. ill talk about it again when the mood strikes in a better light.

some things never change

and SATC has turned into a movie!



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im in a susceptible frame of mind today so anyone i meet later can/will influence my mood. or so it says in the horoscope reading for myself.

i like this, Think straight today, no matter how crooked you feel.

i cant.
ive got a tired brain with a million things running through it.
i could relate to it already.

im happy to say that..

..everyone seems to be happy/satisfied/enjoying their career choices

..even though i feel 'brain dead' for the past few days [and got chided by cat for whining] because ive been hanging out late after work consecutively, i came home happier albeit more tired, than usual

..i got an ideal job that i feel passionate about

..whatever michelle wants, michelle gets [everyone needs a lucky streak at some point, hey!]

..i am still in touch with everyone and havent lost touch with anyone

..ive happy things to tell =)

funny bush moments

guess who i saw at MoS?

a lil drama soon ensued, so to speak. but theres no way you could blame 2 intoxicated men. it was a great night nonetheless.

will upload more pictures later. the server's quite cranky right now.

ive been crooning the whole night to songs after songs. i miss singing in a room with noisy dancy people.

im quite breathless right now. literally.



i like this song btw.

sticky situation

i need to calm down.

kind and comforting words were spoken, "it works that way"

harsh words told, "you're in the worst situation"

ringing in my hears of words spoken "it works that way"... but does it?

perhaps. ive only just begun to understand the stickiness of this formalistic affair.

hopefully, with some grace and a bit of luck, i will be able to inflict the least damage.

i want the best for myself and everybody involved.

here to stay

im back.

i'll begin on a clean slate by first thanking ericia for the encouragement to blog again.

my presence [or the lack of] must have been missed heaps.
i hopeeeeeeee.

well im back for good and here to stay.

something to say

the blog was closed but now it's re emerged.
it's been a great period of convalesce. it brought immense reward and serenity.

now that im reconnecting, im also holding back at the same time. i dont kno why, maybe im just silently watching, waiting and retreating.

its all good. all good. :)